Ohhh, the amount of times I have wondered if I should go to back school for nutrition, just so I could tell you I’d gone to school for nutrition. 

Or go back to school for psychology, just so I could tell you I went to school for psychology, only to keep writing the same things I am writing now: the things that interest and fascinate me.

I am not a medical professional, and as much as I have considered forcing myself to be, I’m really not meant to be. I’d hate it.

I’m a writer and storyteller. And I would also be some kind of semi-Christo-buddist-ish forest priestess if anyone would let me, but I guess I should just become a yoga teacher instead.

But more importantly, I used be a food addict — and after healing myself through relatively unconventional means, I am fascinated by the spiritual and emotional causes and ramifications of chronic dieting and diet culture. And I write about it. I give advice. Advice that has to come with a shit-ton of disclaimers because, I am not a medical professional.

The things that healed me more than anything else were: listening to my own body, unlearning what I learned about health and weight, changing the way I looked at beauty and weight, facing my fears of weight, not listening to certain medical professionals, doing some creative recovery, and being willing to be imperfect and make imperfect things. Those are not things I think a nutrition degree could give me. Same with run-of-the-mill psychology. I wanna talk soul and purpose shit.

The reason the Fuck It Diet worked, when no diet, doctor, self-help guru, or even intuitive eating book could, is because it tackled two things at once:

First it tackled the biological and physical reason that keeps people obsessed and bingeing with food.

And at the exact same time, it addressed the emotional, spiritual, and cultural reasons that we become obsessed with food and weight.

I cite the scientists that need to be cited when talking about the biological and metabolic parts of this process (often Linda Bacon or Traci Mann), but I cite them so I can talk about what I really wanna talk about: the spiritual, the emotional, the energetic, the somatic, the intuitive, and resting. Because that’s what healed me. And food. Always food.

I recently heard from a new reader, concerned that I am negative about some of Intuitive Eating’s guidelines.

Intuitive eating, at its core, is about listening to your body and trusting your body to lead the way with eating, as opposed to listening to diet rules.

Your body will naturally lead you to the kinds of foods, and amounts of food, that you eat.

That’s excellent! Being an intuitive eater is the goal!

However, the way many people teach and practice intuitive eating, including the famous book of the same name, focuses on rating your hunger on a scale of 1-10.

I read the book and used that method for years before the Fuck It Diet, and though I had times when I thought I was healed and normal with food, I was not. I was concerned with amounts, I ate crazy slow, and when I didn’t I thought I was “doing it wrong”. But most importantly, I was afraid of gaining weight.

It always blew up in my face. And I still thought about food all the time.

The good thing about the hunger scale, is that any attempt to bring people into their bodies, and teaching them to feel their bodies, is good.

But here are my major issues with it:

1. ‘Rate your hunger/fullness level’ easily feels like a rule to people coming from a diet mind-set
2. This rule easily becomes obsessive and a way to eat “correctly” or “incorrectly”
3. It makes being “too full” seem like a negative thing, therefore there is still a way to “fail”
4. The goal is still “eat less” to “control your weight”

That is still a diet.

People’s goals with this “rate your hunger” version of intuitive eating usually means they are keeping their old diet goal of eating less, for the purpose of controlling or losing weight. And this means that you won’t be healing the biggest cause of food dysfunction: fear of weight.

Our dysfunctional relationship with our bodies and our weight is the reason we are dysfunctional with food. It is the reason we do not trust our appetites. We judge our choices and we think we are gluttons and food addicts. We don’t realize that our bodies and minds are reacting to any sort of restriction as a survival mechanism. This survival response is not healed by rating your hunger or trying to make sure you don’t get too full. That is just more of the same with a different name.

I consider that a temporary bandaid.

So yes, I am negative about rating your hunger, and judging your success based on that.

Rating your hunger for the casual awareness of “eh, I’m not that hungry”, or “yea Im really hungry” is fine, but like, why do you need a number? Just use words.